Confusion

Many things confuse me. Like why are people so obsessed with reality television? Why is it so important to have someone retweet your tweet on Twitter? Why does it feel like an earth-ending apocalypse if no one responds to your comment on Facebook? And how in the heck do you use Google+?

I know some of my questions may never be answered but these things throw me for a loop. I’ve tried (with varying degrees of success) to understand these questions. Some braver souls have even tried to explain to me why it is so important to know what J. Lo was wearing on American Idol last night. I just don’t understand. 

I believe I may have discovered the reason for my confusion. I am shy. Simple enough. I don’t like to be singled out for either excellence or failure. Though I prefer to always be firmly seated in the excellent category. The thought of standing on a stage, even a virtual one, and being spotlighted is terrifying to me. The thought that anyone would care what I did today is a foreign concept. 

Perhaps this stems from my lack of popularity growing up. Yes, I was the dork sitting in the middle row hoping everyone would ignore me, but at the same time wishing with all my might that I could also be popular. So, I will continue to try to work through my confusion. I will attempt to become a more active participant in the social world. I just hope I don’t get in my own way.